Not so enthusiastic

I've got projects going - I'm just not that into them... Don't know why but I can't decide which one to pick up. These socks are from free yarn I got at the Knit and Crochet show last fall. Love the colors - I think I'm just socked out.
This "Sunrise-Sunset" scarf is just feather and fan - the picture doesn't do the colors justice. It's really pretty...will go into the gift stash. I'm totally into scarves these days but I've got enough winter ones. What I really want to do is this vest. OK why is blogger doing this to me. Anyway I've got to find the right yarn. Checked out one LYS tonight - no luck. Saturday I'll venture out again!

Am still working at getting healed - this is not what I expected. I'm very annoyed - everything that touches my skin is irritating - except for one PJ top. As soon as I get home on it goes! It's actually soothing! I do have long periods when I feel pretty normal - then I reach for something or bump into something and the day is ruined. Usually by evening the swelling has begun to bother me and I'm pretty annoyed! REI Girl brought me a really neat necklace from Tanzania - it's lightweight and shouldn't bother me - OMG in a few hours it was off! It's long and just sits at the wrong spot. Clothing is a real challenge...I'm really worried about summer - it won't exactly be sweater weather. Which is why I want to knit the vest above.

I do have to do a shoot out about my docs - Dr. J, Dr. D and the team - they are the best and I feel so honored to be in their hands!

I know - I will get better - it's just a long road. One stitch at a time!

Walking

The girls and I walked on the Deschutes this morning - oh it felt good. We're having a nice weekend - but snow is again in the forecast - so am glad we got out!I got Hillary's socks in the mail - but forgot to take a picture of them finished. Dumb. Have started Ameila's - Smooshy in Ruby River - love this yarn and color. Pattern is a Zig Zag Eyelet - Cast on 70 stitches. Wish I could finish them sooner as it's her birthday next week - but won't happen. A belated wish!

College girl is asking for socks - oh gosh I hate it when that happens - just another excuse for her mother to knit socks!!! I think I'm finally converting my family to hand knits!

Feeling better this week - I've resigned myself to drugs...the healing goes on! Seeing the surgeon this week - am anxious to find out why I've got these hard ropes of tissue that don't seem to be going away. They are very tight and annoying. All and all I've been mending and doing better! Will probably work full days this week...I hate the thought of getting up early in the morning - it's such a chore. Staying up late knitting doesn't help either! Oh well!
Knit Peace!

Knitting Helps!!

I've decided there are two sides to this story -
1) I am so glad I did what I did - both breasts=no more cancer
2) I hate what it has done to me - not the losing the breasts part (I could care less) but the recovery is the pits (somewhat literally)! I'm into my third week since the surgery and I still feel like I've been hit with a Mac truck. My range of motion is limited (yes I've been doing my exercises), everyday something else hurts (Drugs are my friend), I have to change my shirts often during the day to change where the seams rub (my skin is so sensitive) and I am tired of feeling like I've got a piece of rope tied around me (way too tight)!

But knitting helps. I went to Stitch & B*tch tonight and really enjoyed taking back my life. I actually think that evenings are my best time - I seem to be the most comfortable then. I did work today for a few hours and will continue that for a week or so. One step at a time. I WILL get my life back.

Oh my gosh - the girls just came home from a day of shopping and dinner with their dad....they bought me this great bracelet - of course they think it's hysterical - they are calling it a 'fancy sweatband'I have to say that my daughters are the absolute best!! I could not have made this journey without their constant entertainment and support. I am soooo lucky!!